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NYC Observer: Introduction

NYC Observer: Introduction

(Intro to a project with only one entry)

Pressed by his The Great American Poetry Podcast collaborator Isaac Meyers III, Esq. for a contribution to Curlew Magazine, the upcoming publication of Isaac’s Curlew New York real estate agency, Andy Watson agreed to the text’s terms: something in about a month–via text, and distracted, but still. This was already days ago, and the requesting text arrived days before that. You can imagine Andy’s consternation as he–slowly, in confused clock-eroding stages–realized that he had to finish something in less than a month!

But settling back, tidying the living room, looking out onto a cloud-domed Brooklyn stirringly coda-ed by the last several hundred of the Freedom Tower’s heroic 1776 feet, Andy thought: “I’ll just farm it out!”

We, the ever indulgent within the safe-folds of fiction WAP, have contracted Paul (no relation to the Biblical personage, though in dark moods he is wont to call himself “Saul” and curse the very strangeness that in happier moments he so tenderly admires) to walk around town and write down some things he sees. Actually, float around town.

Most of us come into this world with bodies. Not so for Paul! Born some 40 years ago with neither body nor surname, Paul has had a rough time of it. The prejudices of the embodied prevent them from seeing his worth and for too long he’s floated here and there, alone, unemployed, with no place to call home. But we at WAP are more broadminded than the hopeless, sharding, directionlessly-munkering deadmass of humanity. We said to Paul: “No body? No problem! The vast majority of our staff don’t even exist; and those that do rarely produce anything for us. So please, be our guest, head on out, send us some reports. We’ll toss them up.”

We’ll let Andy and Isaac decide what ends up where when upon the printless page, but for now we’ll let Andy and Bartleby put them up on their website, which they’ve managed to keep pretty much a secret for nigh on five years now. That’s not a dig, boys! Well, not a pointed one.

Signed,

WAP Management

Author: BW
Editor/copyright: AMW
Management oversight: None

Fruehlings Gedicht

Fruehlings Gedicht

Der Bach lebt wieder
knichernd bebt er heiter.
Die Sonnenlicht wirft er
blitzkaotisch herum.

Die Erde kann man riechen
Dunkel sanft und tief in.
Gesaeng schuettert die Baeume
und die Kinder spieln traeumend
des Flusses entlanggehend.

Die ein bisschen Aelter
schreiben einander Gedichte
und wir ueblichen
gedraengte einsame Masse
freuen uns abwesend
das etwas besseres Wetter.

Spazieren wo wir immer
sowieso uns spazieren.
Zerstreuen mit den Wolken
die jetzt voll bunt und weiss
den Himmel durchziehen,
alles ruehig hinnehmend.

AMW

[Bartleby’s Poetry Corner]

Sunny Day

Sunny Day

A Brooklyn dialysis center in red brick and blue awning
On a sunny day in a clear sky way
With Dean Street black and bright sidewalks wide cream.

The hurt that coats everything like heavy paint
is dripping down the sides and spilling
around the edges, filling in, gumming up, stopping down.

What is left? What can yet be won from this table?
The cards fell after the gunshot blew
They scattered and splattered blood gelled the scene.

I’m not the man I promised I’d be.
I’m the creature soaked in black goo
from the swamp where the vegetation stinks
together into this oily sludge coat
that we lurking beasties wear
and of which we alltimes stink.

I’m not the man I told my parents about
when I stood tall and chipper
talking over the rail of my clean
and proper wooden crib.
I’m the flying lizard with the open throat
who screeches mindlessly into a fading age.
I don’t know how some one so big and bulky
so lopsided and ungainly
managed to sweep the sky with great
but paper-thin and bone-bound wings.
Maybe the atmosphere was different then,
the rules easier,
the game bent towards me.

Forgive us as the white strewn soft long
clouds shift their spots, making the Jan day
now bright as summer, now soft as autumn.
Forgive us anyway,
though it is common knowledge that you needn’t bother
with us anymore, now you’ve grown stronger,
now you’ve moved on to better things,
now you’ve found your miraculous heart past the end of us.
Ah but doesn’t that make it just the right time
to double back ’round and accept us
for what we ended up becoming, staying, holding steady as?

Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear heart,
oh my gosh, who can say what it’s all about?
I’m so sorry and please excuse me
while I go grab a seltzer.
I’ve believe with a few bubbly dabs
your red dress will sing as bright and true
as when you entered this party, ruffling as you came.

Just a moment, oh give me but a sec,
I’ll make it all right.
I usually don’t move so quick and unthought
I’m normally precise and kindly cool.
It must be the drink, though of course I’m
holding myself to a reasonable pace
and I’m drinking only the softest beers
and gentlest wines, keeping free of spirits,
breaking this party calmly like a master chef
treating tge last egg of the souffle,
oh gosh, I’ve really made an effort here!

I asked you to come here to come here to help out I specifically asked you to get down here to help me out to make this OK I said please and I directed my comments respectfully I was completely in line and only asked for what was reasonable for one such as me in my position and given my circumstances to ask for to ask of you given what you are to us and how you arrange yourself and how that arrangement gave rise to the flowering in the soft dirt and the many shapes and moving forms that people the inscrutable seas which are deeper than my veins and wider than my wildest dreams being but a man constricted by a time and within a certain range of space, like a cow on the state lands on the grazing lands that are big but eventually bound by barbed wire and the rattling old pickups that carry callus-hands families to church and the store and school and the store where the Mrs works and the gas station where the Mr lends his sturdy hands.

Come back around if you would if you please if you could. I cannot keep it up like this all day long. All alone here with the curving metal channels and the wind farms that look like a million naked prop planes one-eyeing all over this dusty leathery brown-grassed hilly land where I came without papers from another state in the union where I was born with the smallest dollops of sinful pride. I’ve got big ideas! The world is wide open!

AMW/BW

The Nature of Evil

The Nature of Evil

I feel lonely and scared. A little guilty. What have I done wrong? Where did I go wrong? What is evil? What is my part in the long, stupid strides of mismanaged resources? Some things happen, we’re given this or that, this or that is taken from us. Where does the evil come in? When is it our fault?

It is always our fault, never strictly mine or yours. It is always our possibilities that are shepherded into beauty, joy, fun, kindness, a rich harvest and a fair share in that harvest, a space where we can find ourselves and meet others in a way that spreads health that is spiritual at its core, but that always cares for the body and the mind–that understands if suffering happens it is right and good to accept it and bare it and make the most of it, but you should still work constantly to avoid and reduce suffering for everyone, including yourself. Anyway, there’s always suffering. The point of life is to live joyfully life-overflowingly creatively kindly and to spread that kind of living–not to prove some pointless point to yourself or your neighbors, and least of all to God!! So much for the cult of suffering. Not that the cult of pleasure’s any better. The reason pleasure is good is because it allows you the freedom to discover your inner wisdom and develop your latent talents in a way that praises and shares the Light honestly, creatively, joyfully. It is pleasant to be healthy and to be in healthy relationships and to go on physical and mental adventures; those things are good because they help the Light play and exult in Itself.

I’m not a prophet, nor am I an enlightened master. I’m just some poor sinner who wants to do better and believes that we all know deep inside that we should serve the Lord our God with all our hearts and minds and our neighbors as ourselves, that everything else follows from this, and the degree to which we put anything else before this two way spiritual effort–into the Light within and out into other people and our shared physical, mental and emotional environments–we are moving in the wrong direction and need to adjust our course.

There are various intellectual and/or emotional doubts one may raise against this doctrine, but the words themselves aren’t supposed to be True or False, they are supposed to point (imperfectly but not therefore inadequately) towards an inner sense of things that a human mind-as-a-whole understands to be True. And if there is no Truth and if human lives don’t truly matter–then why are we bothering coming up with intellectual and emotional accounts about what’s going on and what we should do? Valuing spiritual goodness and wisdom is both experientially and logically prior to valuing emotions, ideas, the physical world, or anything: our thought-as-a-whole must fundamentally knows/believes/understands/cares-about The Love That Actually Exists And Matters; and if we don’t care about and believe in and understand The Love That Actually Exists And Matters Most, neither our hearts nor minds can think of any reason how it might care about, believe in, and understand anything (without the possibility of wisdom, even saying “wisdom is impossible” is emotionally and intellectually self-contradictory: if wisdom is impossible, how am I supposed to take that statement? and what’s to make me adopt it or notice it over another, and yet you keep going on as if you had something to say–?!?!)

Anyway, most people are willing to agree to virtues like goodness, kindness, accuracy and honesty, and working together to get the most out of what is given to us while sharing the riches fairly. The evil generally comes in via unwise interpretations of those celebrated virtues. Actually, it comes in because people only pretend to care about goodness and etc, but since we often succeed in at least partially tricking ourselves, it isn’t enough to convince ourselves that we can and should consciously seek to keep moving more and more towards what is Truly Best for ourselves and others–we also have to improve how we relate those necessarily intellectually- and emotionally-vague spiritual goals (necessarily vague since what actually matters is not ideas or feelings about what matters, but a Reality prior to our ideas and feelings) to individual and collective choices in the here and now.

Or is it so complicated? If a person actually did care most of all about the True Good shining within, then he or she would put in the effort required to at least not overstep themselves and pull down huge slabs of evil onto the laps of all of us. And yet–there are so many examples of religiously-motivated evil, that it seems obvious that merely convincing yourself that you are putting the Light first proves nothing about what you are really up to. Additionally, then there’s probably also such a thing as straight up madness masquerading as piety.

Both faith in Goodness and faith in one’s right to blow off Goodness amounts to overstepping one’s Knowledge and causes one to squander and destroy resources (here taken in the largest since: time, energy, ideas, feelings, traditions, political establishments, material wealth, social connections, etc etc), thus understepping one’s obligations to the Light within and to ourselves and others. So what are we to do? How to get and stay in the sweet spot? As individuals? As groups?

Without accuracy and honesty in your self-assessments, your can lead one’s thought to any conclusions, and so thought becomes a meaningless, chaotic mess. Ditto for thought that doesn’t have some clear standard for what it prefers. And if what you prefer is not actually what is Best, then you may be able to reach conclusions, but they will mean little to your heart and mind, and so you won’t travel with your thought to its own conclusions–you won’t really be making choices, just watching them as precepts nonsensical to your truest self direct your thought and actions. Of course, no one is perfect, so it is more appropriate to phrase these maxims in terms like “the degree to which my thought is not accurate and honest, it can twist itself into any contortion”.

What about public life? The degree to which a collective allows inaccuracies and lying, it is like a mind divided against itself–its shared thought all contorted, confused, hijackable by stupidity, greed, all manner of folly. At least that’s true of a liberal Democracy where rights to free-speech and freedom of movement of association are protected. And other forms of government are terrible to live in. So let’s at least agree to stop lying.

Ah! But look what comes next! People believe what they want to believe. And nowadays many spend their lives in neighborhoods and media outlets that tell them what they want to believe. And so it is hopeless. Our break with reality and the resultant descent into political nihilism is inevitable: for if a collective has no shared truths, then they are have no collective meaning and so as a political unit they are nihilists: they share no meaning, only random hoots and hollers of animal fears and prides.

Many label blind followerism a great evil because it allows leaders and followers alike to ignore reality and be guided by whatever delusions light their fires. True enough–but cynicism has the same tendency and is also often used to expedite blind followerism; it should therefore also be recognized as a great evil. So I should step back from the above outburst. Declaring everything hopeless oversteps what can be known and encourages opportunism.

But what is the way forward? It seems clear to me that what we need is not for some individual–be he ever so wise–to explain what is good and how to live, but for all of us to get together and figure out together what actually deep down care about and believe our country can and should be and do and to work together to keep moving towards that (itself constantly reassessed and tweaked) goal. The only hope for individual progress is to clearly and honestly pursue the Goodness within that alone knows what is actually best for us. Likewise, the only hope for collective progress is to all together clearly and honestly discuss what Good things we can together do. Combining religion and politics tempts politicians to hypocrisy and voters to laziness; but combining religion with the universal value of “Goodness is real and it matters to us all” forces us to admit that we are all in this together and are more alike than different, and so, while asking politicians to lipservice it clearly undoes any good collectively prizing Goodness might do us, perhaps we could at least agree to agree on this one thing without which we can agree on nothing meaningful (ie: “Truth and Goodness are real and matter”).

But what forum would work for us? Don’t we all hate each other? Or at least haven’t we all given up on each other? Am I going to go to Trump country and be a good sport? Or would I rather stay in New York City where 90% of us voted against Trump and we can all agree that we didn’t do this rash and foolish thing? Ah, but that’s just it: everything we do we all do together. Admitting that is the first step towards us as a nation thinking clearly and making good decisions.

People often make poor decisions. Groups of people are stupid mobs–that’s a long-established fact. They get together and agree with each other, rile each other up, egg each other on, light torches, and go out into the streets to hurt other people. That’s the sort of thing groups of people can do. So why be surprised when they make the comparatively more subtle error of pouting away their democracy?

I don’t know how to stop the evil, how to make things better for us all. And I don’t know how to get us find the way together. I feel sick to my stomach with worry and fear. God help me!

Author: BW
Editor, co-worrier, and copyright holder: AMW

I love you

I love you

Somewhere along the way, by the creek, where the water scatters white, on the dirt path inclining down to the water’s edge, with barky roots, and dirt-clumps dangled from tenticles poking out the bank, and as the thick trees shaded one side and the sunlight flooded in the other, open, creek-side, I felt that soft clean air, and my limbs moved well.

Now we live a different way. Our city is a giant ball of steel and glass, and its recycled air always rather dry and rough. Every step clanks the metal-grating walkways and stairs; if you drop a small object–like a penny or a wad of gum–through the grating, the constant vacuum-space underneath immediately sucks it up and carries it to the sorting house, where it is cataloged; then they email you a fine; then you’re obliged to go to login to your citizen account where you follow the prompts to pay and to write a brief but sincere apology.

I met you in between these times, but I suspected you way back when and I remember you even now. I wish I could find a way to explain to us how I feel about you. I call it “love”, but it feels more like an apology. I’m sorry because I cannot find a way to make the latent goodness come alive and bring us the kindly, competent joy that we long for and that I’ve always sensed welling up between you and me.

Author: BW
Assistant: AMW

Editor’s Note:
Many have asked me who this entry is for–a question that’s also bugged me. Through prolonged association with the author and inquiries both direct and indirect, I’ve come to the conclusion that it is like a broken icicle lodged at a slant into crusted snow. It starts off for some girl, but soon feels dishonest with itself and, in frustrated concern for self and other, shards off at the base, falling into the vague knowledge that it is for everyone. It still somewhat longs to bury itself into married life, a longing that views itself as somewhat reasonable and somewhat ridiculous, seeing–as it must–that wholesome romance and family life can be salutary, but in the end we belong to God and all God’s creatures, not to a wife or anything else a human can take hold of and be content with.

His Sickness

His Sickness

His sickness is a window-dressing plague
that comforts all the passing thuggy beasts
in prickly sweaters (scales and horns get caught
on thick blue woolen fabric).

His sickness is a child’s hoarse dry forced cough
accompanied by a doleful headshake,
eyes downcast. Sick! And I had studied so!
Except his illness’s actual and clear
for all to see–politeness looks away,
but it still knows.

His sickness always laughs just off, too weird
to count as funny, jovial, or nice–
or anything but creepy weird.
What’s wrong with him? What’s his deal? We’d like
to know.

Author: Local Committee of Local Concerns

Who we were

Who we were

How fought we then in ancient days now spent.
We kicked our heels up high; we battered much.
Beneath your swirling sword, our tidal wave
of chaos and calamity did surge
against the gathered stones of neighbored foes,
and carried twisted limbs and gaping mauls,
shattered spears and scattered shields
across the bloody scream-up moan-down field.

Now great king, how thin, how pale: shorn of all
your valiant hair and ruddy ready charm!
And oh my king, your voice so ragged worn
that once would boom like thunder’s rolling roar–!?

It meets me strangely, these reappraisals
from younger folk with cleaner nails who judge
our days without our ways

***Oh, looks like a fragment**

Stop the Evil for Me

Stop the Evil for Me

I sat on a stony ground
just looking all around
at the people

A festival in the grass
that seemed about to last
forever

A bright sky blue sunshine
surrounding everyone
on the fairgrounds

Who’ll stop the evil for me?
Who’ll keep the hoard away
from my city?

Or must the angry chaos
Twisting like a storm at sea
rise and claim me?

They speak of ancient evil
A devil prowling wide
across the stages

I know who I’ve become
and I’m sorry for it
every day

Who’ll take my place
at the wall
where they face

The monsters that crawl
on spindly legs
squeal laughing at how small
we’ve gotten?

Who’ll put their back into it?
when I slip out the back
without any spirit
left?

Who’ll stop the evil for those
who like me
quit?

AMW / BW

The Lonely Light

The Lonely Light

Come flicking through the sheets
of thick seaside fog
coiled round and round the wires
where plump breasty flaps
sidle, ruffle, stare
settle down with a frown.

Come chasing the horn dark and blue
that beeps against the damp
that sneaks across the lawn,
and bores through the wool,
to lace your squishy flesh–
where centipedes curl
to balls of sleep-sleep time
for a thousand stupid years.

Fiends, ah friends!
Gather ’round,
bring it down,
pass it on!
Let it burn
as you turn
towards me
goblets held
for all to see!

Right you are
my bright lil star
who twinkle twinkle
in my scar-crossed eye!

This light’s stolen sure
from vulture’s jagged crook
above a sandy floor
about an aqua hook,
as bone dry air laughs
quiet and rough.

Creepy, sinister, parched air
that never did care
who within its stale breathe
caught a rattled death,
a lonesome, weary, bright but dreary,
sorrowful soft

Intro to Something Deeperism

Intro to Something Deeperism

A. What it is.
B. How it works
C. Why adopt it.
D. How to verify you’re making progress.
E. Something Deeperism as a group ideology.

A. What is Something Deeperism?

Something Deeperism is a common-enough worldview.

Something Deeperism maintains the following:

(1) There is a “True Good” (aka: “God”, “Buddha Nature”, “What is Prior to All Particulars and Creates, Sustains, and Shines-Through All Particulars”; the “Reality that is also Knowledge”, etc.)–which, unlike everything else, actually knows what is going on and how we should live–.

Note on language use:
“True Good” is a poetic formulation. It points via language through ideas and feelings towards an inner experience prior to language, ideas, and feelings. We can point to it like we can point at a vista and know others will experience the sight in basically the same way that we do–because others are fundamentally the same as we are and relate to what is going on in fundamentally the same way. In both the case of sharing vistas and sharing spiritual senses-of-things, error and miscommunication is possible, but–if both parties are basically healthy and well-meaning–errors and miscommunications can be generally be reduced to a degree where meaningful discussion of the essential experience is possible. (Why suppose everyone is essentially the same? More on that later.)

Poetic formulations point towards experiences with some vagueness, but not therefore necessarily inadequately. A literal statement can point with much more perfect precision, but only because literal statements take place within a model that comes with the clause, “of course, this is just what follows given xyz assumptions–we’re not saying what, if any, relationship with any ‘actually existing reality’ this statement has.” Literal statements are great for modeling logical and physical phenomena, but they can’t say anything about what–if anything–is actually going on, or what actually is worth doing.

Maybe logic and math allow for perfectly literal statements (insofar as they are models divorced from human experience–once a logical or mathematical model is instantiated in a human mind, the concepts are to some degree just stared at in unfathoming wonder, and so morph into something vaguer and more metaphysical than the precise-because-defined-as-such written version). But all other human statements are definitely to some degree literal and to some degree poetic. They are literal to the degree they are reducible to literal definitions and logic; poetic to the degree their meaning relies upon unprovable assumptions about what is going on and what should be done. For example, even the most basic physics equation relies upon the unprovable assumptions that the observable reality is basically the same for all of us, and the observable reality maps meaningfully to human logical conceptions–not to mention the fact that no one really understands or can adequately define basic concepts like “energy”. So even physics, while definitely having a large literal component (succinctly defined terms related together by mathematical logic). And, of course–doesn’t even mathematical logic rely for its meaning upon the assumption that sense is possible and worthwhile? That’s why I’m not sure if I should categorize math and logic as perfectly literal as long as they are on paper and not in human heads: on paper and in computers (which I’m here envisioning as mathematical equations programmed to unfurl themselves), they have no meaning–they have meaning only when understood in human minds, and human minds cannot help but consider them within the context of unprovable assumptions and imprecisely defined concepts.

Suffice it to say, a perfectly literal worldview/life-philosophy is not possible. All worldviews rely to a large degree on ideas that cannot be precisely defined or intellectually proven. But that’s not necessarily a problem. Humans aren’t computers. We are not just precise concepts inside precise logical rules. Our thought also relies on feelings, emotions, and vague inner sense towards concepts/goals (like longings toward “True/what is actually going on” and “Good/what is actually worthwhile”; one cannot overstate the importance of such vague longings that contain both a sense towards “Do this!” and a sense of towards an idea: without, for example, the sense “it matters what I do”, no one would bother to do anything at all). So unlike a formal logical system, our thought’s coherency doesn’t rely solely on fidelity to coherent logical rules, but most fundamentally on self-awareness, internal-honesty, and the push towards those vague guiding longings like “I should seek out and prefer truer and better thought-paths over less true and worse ones; and better actions over worse ones”.

To return, and starting from the top:

Something Deeperism maintains the following:

(1) There is a “True Good” (aka: “God”, “Buddha Nature”, “What is Prior to All Particulars and Creates, Sustains, and Shines-Through All Particulars”; the “Reality that is also Knowledge”, etc.)–which, unlike everything else, actually knows what is going on and how we should live–.

(2) The “True Good” shines through human conscious experience, humans can relate meaningfully to the “True Good”, and–through self-awareness, internal honesty (ie: not lying to yourself about your experience), and a constant and constantly reevaluating push towards one’s in-born sense of “Truth” / “Goodness” / “Beauty” / “Justice” / “Kindness” / “Love” / “God” / “Buddha Nature” (that point prior to all specifics where all is “One” and all is “Holy”)–humans can know/understand/follow the “Truth” more and more adequately.

(3) However, the “Truth” is ultimately prior to human knowledge/understanding/participation, so humans will never know It literally or understand It fully or follow It perfectly.

The Something Deeperist conception of Reality thus believes in the possibility and desirability of wisdom, but wisdom is more of a whole-being, never-ending process of development, and not something that can be forced into specific ideas or attitudes. Some ideas and attitudes point one better towards the path of wisdom than other ideas and attitudes; but we humans often confuse ideas and attitudes about what actually matters with what actually matters, so we have to be careful not to clutch to any idea too tightly, or fool ourselves into thinking that the “True Good” is something we can intellectually know and/or emotionally understand.

B. How does Something Deeperism work?

Something Deeperism works because it is possible for a human to have a subjective relationship with the objective reality that is meaningful enough for the objective reality to point that human adequately towards how we should think and act. Because human ideas and feelings cannot fully grasp the truest nature of reality, wisdom is not an endpoint but a never-ending process of refinement.

The path to progress in Something Deeperism is identical with the beginning of Something Deeperism. There is a seed of wisdom within each human being, a sense that some things are more true than others and some ways of being and actions are better than others, and that we can and should honestly seek for what is truer and better. That sense also contains within it a sense of how we can be successful in that quest: self-aware, honest, keep pushing towards that Light within that knows about “True”, “Good”, “Beautiful”, “Just”, “Loving”. If you don’t believe you can meaningfully select one idea or action over another, why pretend you do? And yet without supposing we can meaningfully select one idea or action over another, our thoughts just turn to chaotic mush. But how can we meaningfully select one idea or action over another? Isn’t it by thinking clearly and maintaining fidelity to our inner sense of “truer” and “better”? And isn’t the sense that “truer” should be preferred only meaningful if “True” is meaningful and preferred (without an absolute anchor, relative values have neither clarification nor impetus)? [Note that these phrases in quotations point past concepts into vague senses-of-things–they point imperfectly but still adequately.]

We could have no firm foundation for thought and action without insight an “Absolute Truth” that is also an “Absolute Reality”. Since Kant Western philosophy’s taken it for granted that the intellect cannot assess it’s own relationship to what–if anything–is actually going on (the noumenon, as opposed to the phenomenon), and therefore can’t say anything meaningful about what–if anything–is really going on. However, Kant’s solution (believe in the noumenon because if you don’t, human morality–which we can’t live without–lacks an adequate footing) has not been considered an obviously adequate answer to our inability to know what is really going on: if we don’t know what is going on, why bother supposing we need to hang on to morality? Basically, forcing yourself to believe in an Absolute based on a relative reasoning doesn’t tend to sit well with people. It feels, well–forced.

But that’s the great thing about Something Deeperism! It doesn’t require you to pretend that human beings can or should live in completely literal accounts. It understands that our thought is always to some degree poetic, and that philosophy must always to some degree rely upon imprecise conceptual ideas and unprovable assumptions; so we don’t have to pretend that we can or should give a relative (ie: completely literal) account of reality.

overcomes intellectual problem of kant
a subjective knowledge of objective truth
not an endpoint but a path–the proof of somethingdeeperism is within the impetus for choosing to discover the proof

C. Why be a Something Deeperist?

You know that inner sense you have that there’s something that is actually going on (aka: something “True”); and that some ways of reacting to what is going on that are actually better than other ways of reacting (aka: ways of living that are closer to “Good”); and that through honestly seeking to better and better understand/know/follow that inner sense, you can succeed in that endeavor and become wiser than before? Something Deeperism accepts that that inner sense is basically correct, but the inner sense is prior to what humans can intellectually and emotionally understand. So you should keep pushing for more and more active insight into the “True Good” seed inside of you, growing the seed into more and more wisdom (ie: more and more understanding/knowing/following the “True Good”); but that wisdom will always be prior to ideas and feelings, and humans have a lot of trouble mixing up ideas and feelings about what matters with what actually matters–so spiritual/emotional/success cannot be measured by what or how vehemently you accept xyz dogma, but only by how bright you grow the Light within, allowing your ideas, feelings, thoughts, and actions to flow more and more cleanly off the Light (the more twists, turns, and confusions between the Light within and your thought and action, the more you fail to live in and through the only aspect of your conscious experience that knows what is actually going on and how you should actually think and act).

Something Deeperism advocates this “bare minimum” dogma in order to avoid the errors of both radical skepticism and fundamentalist dogmatism. Skepticism and faith are tools. Skepticism helps you avoid the error of believing any idea you come across, even ones that you do not know/understand, and which–even if they happened to be true–you therefore can’t meaningfully enter/use/travel-with. Faith helps you avoid the error of never believing in any intellectually and/or emotionally unprovable assumption, which–since all assumptions about how you should think and act are ultimately unprovable–amounts to a belief in an unprovable assumption, a belief that implants a self-defeating eddy at the base of your thought.

Skepticism and faith are complements. Skepticism counteracts faith’s problem: faith combines a sense of assent with xyz ideas, but if you don’t understand how and/or in what way these ideas should be true, then faith forces a blank spot into your thought–a spot where you cannot consciously follow your own thoughts to their conclusions, and so cannot consciously steer them (ie: a spot where you cannot consciously unpack and live your own faith; this is dangerous spiritually, intellectually, and emotionally, because it effectively says that in this vital spot, you cannot find your way consciously, but must close your eyes and let the dogmas–which, it must be stressed, are not what truly matters, but only ideas about what truly matters–unfold however they unfold within a mind that doesn’t understand them and must just push them randomly forward). And faith counteracts skepticism’s problem: doubting everything you cannot intellectually verify causes you to doubt that principle itself, which makes your thought incoherent at its foundation and thus confused and unable to make conscious progress (you spin your wheels forever, shrugging your shoulders; this is dangerous spiritually, intellectually, and emotionally, because you are missing out on finding and discovering a path forward).

Something Deeperism attempts to use skepticism and faith as tools in service of better and better knowing/understanding/following the “True Good”. No principle of thought and action is of any value unless it actually matters what we think and do; so a principle of thought and action is only valuable insofar as it helps us know/understand/follow the “True Good”. Something Deeperism tries to find the middle ground between radical skepticism and blind faith with a dogma that keeps the intellect focused on the need for all other aspects of one’s conscious experience to follow that aspect that actually knows what is going on and how we should move while also asking the intellect to be wary of assuming too many metaphysical details, as the “True Good” is prior to ideas and feelings, but humans feel comfy/powerful/safe within ideas and feelings, so it is easy for us to get so preoccupied with ideas and feelings about what matters, that we put them above the quest to open our hearts and minds more and more to the Light shining within.

Additionally, we Something Deeperists also have this maxim:

“Let us all be Something Deeperists at least to the extent that we keep our ideas and feelings about What Matters (including of course so the God help us Amen our ideas and feelings about Something Deeperism) from betraying that ineffable light that they are to some degree imperfectly but still to some degree adequately pointing towards! Help us, Oh inconceivably vastly vast That Which Helps! Please!!!!”

Something Deeperism is a good worldview, because a humans needs to coordinate all her aspects of thought around the one aspect of her thought that actually knows what is going on and what is worthwhile, so her intellect should stay focused on the Absolute; but the Absolute is prior to what a human can literally understand or perfectly follow, so her intellect should also stay focused on the fact that she can and should keep working to find better and better ideas and better feelings, but she can never find, and so never should suppose she has or will find, a literal and/or final knowledge of “True Good”. The Path is an inner one. You must work to balance your ideas and feelings so that they flow better and better off the Light within which alone knows that there’s any possible way forward, any real reason to pick one idea or action over another. It is kind of mystical and experiencial; but it is also realistic about the need for some intellectual boundaries to the spiritual quest. It fits well with other philosophies and religions: it isn’t intended to take the place of one’s philosophical and religious journeys, but to augment them with the general principle that we have to all work to grow the Light within and our ideas and feelings must help with that goal or be emended.

1ai. Too much metaphysical vagueness and/or too much metaphysical skepticism is self-defeating because human thought knows it cannot meaningfully choose one thought-path or action over another without a fidelity to one’s own inner sense of “truer/more-accurate” and “better/more-worth-choosing” (not those words, nor the conceptual ideas they conjure up, but the inner-senses-of-things they point imperfectly [but not therefore inadequately] towards); and human thought knows that, for example, one’s inner sense of “truer” can only be meaningful and preferable if one also has a meaningful inner sense of “True” that one prefers (“True” = “this is actually the case”; “this would be the case if xyz assumptions were actually the case” is only meaningful and desirable to creatures for whom “this is actually the case” is meaningful and desirable). We’re not in this paragraph claiming that human thought’s inner sense of “this is actually the case” actually relates meaningfully and correctly to whatever it is that is actually the case–just that an individual human cannot use his or her thought coherently (meaningfully-to-itself) without assuming that his or her inner senses of “True” and “Good” point meaningfully towards the direction s/he should prefer when choosing between various thought- and action-directions.

1aiExample: The above point is easier to envision if I take you back to how it first occurred to me. Back in the day I was doubting everything, including that my inborn methods for gathering and evaluating information (the way human thought–including my own–couldn’t help but operate) had any hope of relating meaningfully to what is really going on–or even knowing whether or not anything was really going on. But how meaningful is it to say “I don’t know whether or not my thoughts have any meaningful relationship to what is really going on–or even if anything is really going on”? If I assume it possible that I don’t have a meaningful relationship to what is really going on (or can even know if anything is actually the case), then how am I supposed to understand my own thoughts–including the thought that I don’t necessarily have a meaningful relationship to what is really going on? And so more and more I agreed with Epicurus: That logos [radical skepticism] is indeed self-defeating! Anyway, if nothing is “True” and nothing is “Good”, why was I bothering trying to avoid error?, why was I trying to come up with a coherent life philosophy? And no matter what stories I tell myself, how can I choose one thought over another without accepting and using my own inner-senses towards “truer” and “better”, and what do those relative concepts mean or matter without being anchored in an inner sense of “True” and “Good” (again, not those concepts, but the inner-senses they point towards)? Without a coherent way to choose one thought over another, one can equally choose or reject any thought and so one’s thought turns to mush; and awareness, internal-honesty, and fidelity to those inner-senses “truer”, “better”, “True”, “Good”–that’s what holds human thought together: a human isn’t and informal logical systems but complex systems that use emotions, feelings, concepts, and inner-senses-of-things all together when thinking and acting–so a human’s thought cannot be held together solely by logical principles, but also needs attitudinal/felt principles like awareness, internal honesty, pushing for a clearer and clearer understanding of “what is going on” and “what should be done”.

1aii. So much for radical skepticism and all the fancy footwork that tries to build ideas worth accepting and actions worth pursuing atop a foundation of “well, for all we know, everything’s meaningless”. And ergo the need for a dogma that at least accepts the need for awareness, internal honesty, and a push towards “truer” and “better” based upon an inner-senses of “True” and “Good”. (Some might say, “if you’re ultimate guide is prior to ideas and feelings, why insist upon a specific

1aa. Something Deeperism does not suggest that one should necessarily drop other dogmas. It just maintains that the purpose of human life is to grow in wisdom, and that involves coordinating your various aspects–intellectual, emotional, physical–so that they harmoniously work together under the ultimate guidance and direction of the only aspect of your possible experience that actually knows what is going on and what matters: the “True Good”. Something Deeperism maintains that much, and from that much it concludes that you need an intellectual conception of what’s going on and what’s to be done (what I’m here calling a “dogma”) that points your intellect towards the correct path; Something Deeperism further holds that the dogma sketched above does that acceptably well and–by avoiding further specifics–also minimizes the risk of exchanging allegiance to the Path for allegiance to a dogma. The only justification for a dogma, an attitude, an emotional response to life, or anything at all is that it helps you grow in wisdom, and wisdom implies an understanding that “Truth” is wider and deeper than ideas; so if you find yourself clutching a dogma or attitude or etc. so tightly that it turns your focus away from your quest to connect with and understand/follow/live the “Truth” better and better, then that dogma is counterproductive and needs to be emended.

1aaa. In an effort to

2. The “Truth” is what is actually going on. It is an Absolute Reality that is also an Absolute Knowledge and an Absolute Wisdom and an Absolute Goodness, an Infinite Self-Aware Love.

2a. Note that ideas (aka: stories-about) and feelings (aka: reactions-to) cannot stand outside of themselves and assess their own viability. They rightfully worry that they could always be wrong in any given detail or in their core approach to learning, evaluating, and deciding. How different the “Truth” is! With no gap s between the “Truth’s” Reality, Knowledge, and Wisdom, there’s no chink where error or misunderstanding could slip in. This certainty of epistemological, logical, metaphysical, and ethical correctness is doubly assured by the Absolute nature of the “Truth”.
(Please take a moment to contemplate the wonder of that spot where prior to all distinctions, where only what Is is.)

2aa. Note from the above that we can have poetic knowledge of the “Truth”. Poetic knowledge is not perfectly concise, precise, clear, and intellectually/emotionally understandable/knowable/disposable. But that’s not the same as inadequate. Ergo the path: take the seed of wisdom and keeping working to grow that inner Light, so It becomes more and more your path, guide, leader, way.

B. Why Adopt Something Deeperism as your worldview?

Actually, you already have. Everyone is to some degree a Something Deeperist. What those of us who identify ourselves as “Something Deeperists” are really saying is:

“Let us all be Something Deeperists at least to the extent that we keep our ideas and feelings about What Matters (including of course so the God help us Amen our ideas and feelings about Something Deeperism) from betraying that ineffable light that they are to some degree imperfectly but still to some degree adequately pointing towards! Help us, Oh inconceivably vastly vast That Which Helps! Please!!!!”

1a Addendum on the relationship of language to Reality and the necessity of searching for the “Truth” if your thought is to be coherent (to make sense to you).

Such poetic formulations point towards a Reality prior to ideas and feelings–not perfectly, but not therefore necessarily inadequately. They point via words through ideas and feelings toward something prior to words, ideas and feelings like you point towards a vista and know that others who follow your finger will have an experience essentially identical to yours: because you know all humans are essentially the same, you know that, barring a serious error or misunderstanding, you are experiencing essentially the same thing, and that, given basic health and a serious commitment to mutual understanding, any errors or misunderstandings can be worked through until you and another person can end up on essentially the same page.

You cannot doubt your ability to meaningfully communicate with others without doubting the assumption that you understand your own thoughts adequately well (if other people’s understanding of what they are talking and writing about is not essentially the same as your understanding of what you are hearing them say and write, what relationship do you have to everything you’ve learned by interacting with others [note on how we learn what words indicating feelings and emotions: using empathy we reverse engineer the expressions and gestures that feelings and emotions automatically create on their feelings and feel a sketch of what they feel]). So you cannot coherently doubt that you and others are essentially the same. The only coherent path is finding a way to adequately know/believe/understand/follow the essential sameness of you and others.

The same basic reasoning can be used to demonstrate that you have no choice but to find a way to know/believe/understand/follow the following:
(1) your various aspects of thought (including ideas, feelings/emotions/sense-experiences can relate meaningfully with each other, and your thought-as-a-whole can assess how meaningfully they are relating to each other adequately well.
(2)

2. We say that everyone is to some degree a Something Deeperist because Something Deeperism is really just the acknowledgement that we can and should prefer “truer” thoughts and “better” actions, and that the way to do that–to coherently choose one thought or action over another–is by being aware of one’s thoughts and feelings, honest with oneself, and thorough in one’s pursuit of “True” and “Good”.

2a. What’s that you say? Some people don’t subscribe to that view of things? Actually, they can’t help but subscribe to that view of things. Every time a person tries to choose one thought over another, they automatically assume that they can and should and that they can do so by following their own internal rules of thought, and the most fundamental rules of human thought include awareness, internal-honesty, and seeking “truer” and “better”–inner directions that only have value and make sense if moored by a coherent inner sense of and dedication to “True” and “Good”.

2aa. With “truer”, “better”, “True”, and “Good” we point with language through ideas and feelings into senses-of-things that are ultimately prior to concepts. They are senses of things we all have and that we all rely on all the time. Their foundational role in human thought can be seen in the absurdities that immediately arise when one tries to deny or even doubt their conceptual approximations (ie: the words and their dictionary definitions).

2aaa. “There is no Truth” is clearly self-contradictory. What is the sentence supposed to mean? It’s only possible hope to escape being nonsense would be asserting that there was no such thing as “Absolute Truth”, and that the statement itself was only a “relative truth”. But without an “Absolute Truth”, what paradigm could we really have for choosing one “relative truth” over another? You can fancy feet with logic all day long, but at the end of the day if you maintain that there’s only “relative truths”, then why should anyone–including you–particularly believe-in/care-about your “relative truths”? Also, who can understand a reality in which all we have are “relative truths”? “true” relative to what? To some theory that itself is essentially no more nor less true than anything else? You cannot help