I know that you would like to love me.
But you cannot let yourself love me.
Because it would be a bad idea to love me.
Because I am not good husband material.
What if I could change so that I became good husband material?
Then it would be safe for you to love me.
And you could open your heart fully and let me in.
And I could do the same for you.
And we could be happy.
So I will get a better career.
And I will eat only vegetables.
And fast four times a year.
And meditate and exercise daily.
And be a good choice for you.
Then you can turn towards me
As I turn towards you
And we can sink into one another
A woman can’t let herself love just anybody.
He needs to be able to give her what she needs for her life.
A stable, safe place where she can relax and be herself and they can raise a family.
I don’t want you to go.
What should I do?
What are the systems I can employ?